下雨天。天灰。心灰

第一次，
觉得自己像
MV的女主角，
悲剧中的主角……

一个人，
站在挤满人群的巴士上，
默默地，流着泪……
脑海里
一直不停播的旋律――
太委屈……

是我变了吧？
变得不再那么单纯，
不再那么天真。

累了吧！ 我想。

当这个没什么自信的我
一直遇到挫折，
一再受打击……

每天清晨睡醒
给自己灌输的正能量，
不到半天
已经
被负面思想给淹没……

自信心上的裂痕
日见剧增，
它，
在等待着
就快到的、
被瓦解的一天……

middle of the sea

i am at the middle of the sea..
without compass..
i lost my way..

sailing alone..
at the middle of the sea..

i suppose to go to where the rainbow is..
but i am lost my way..

the rain keeps pouring..
beating my body and my face..

the strong wind keeps blowing..
pulling my sailboat..
to where..
i don't know..

a ghost story

to SOMEONE who so kaypoh wanna know the story last night =.='''

it's quite hard for me to type the story out in english, but i will try my best.

As you all know that we went for movie after the dinner. The movie 'where got ghost' 吓到笑, is a singaporean horror + comedy movie.

it's quite funny at first.. until.. if not mistaken, when it came to the end of the first story, jessy looked so scared.. she asked, ' did you see?' i let her hold my hand, and i could feel that she really 吓到 and scared.. she saw 2 times..

i tried to console her saying that what she saw is just the light, nothing else actually.. and i gave her the 经 that i bought from malacca guan yim temple.. hope that it could help to release her fear..

i not dare to let her know that, i actually feel something wrong once i stepped in the cinema.. the feel was not uncomfortable, and the smell is just like few months back when i met something after finished work..

i thought that was just my imagination after being told the 'gold class cinema story'.. i did believe that it won't happen there.. i told myself don't think too much.. and concentrated on the movie..

actually SHE was sitting beside me, at my left hand side, on the staircase! SHE 'was' a young lady age almost similar with us i guess, also 20's or ealy 30's only.. and quite pretty.. HER appearance 'was' quite nice in a flora dress with a hairband.. SHE 'was' quite courteous.. and i guess SHE likes jasmine :) [p/s: dun ask me why i said so]

until the end of the movie, we did not disturb each other. so i believe that what jessy saw is just an accident.. she was not supposed to see it! but too bad.. she saw it.. and made her could not concentrate on the funny ghost movie..

-the end-

GR, i think you need to pay me for the 'hoi hao zhong' and this story liao.. you can bank in the money to my maybank acc or you can also pass to yul.. lol..

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RIP baby lappie

it's time for it
to rest in peace
after a few years of accompany me

when i was fighting for assignments
when i was burning midnight oil for tests & exams
when i was lonely in hostel in a small town called serdang

when i was sad
when i was happy
when i felt angry
when i felt excited
when i felt disappointed

days & nights

it was always there with me

and then
one day
after it coma for 2nd time
someone said
'you can now find a fengshui place & bury it'
these words
just like a big boom to me
and i heard a sound inside my body
a sound like a broken glass
oppss...
it's my broken heart!

it's bleeding..
my heart is bleeding..
so does my purse T.T

BM ~ the place where i grew up..

was back to BM for this long weekends..

the world is changing, so does BM..
there's so many changes.. the road, the place & the people..

BM, is no longer a small little town as how N years ago when i was small..
since when, the 'pasar malam' beside my house changed from open air to covered.. and now.. people are no longer allowed to sell their stuffs there.. except the food inside..
since when, a part of Jalan Kulim changed become one way..
since when, kim sen school transformed to become a place that is so strange..
since when, there's a pasar at Kampung Baru..
since when, we can only buy the veggie from the wet market at Kampung Baru..
since when, Lai Kee closed down already..
since when, 金玉之家 transformed to be a club..
since when, 九皇爷 there got so many shoplots..
since when, Kampung Baru there become so 热闹, so famous..
since when, auto city could be a new choice for people to go to except going to island..
since when, the kind neighbours became so unfriendly..
since when, playground in front of my house became a place for people to park their cars..
since when, the boulevard that could let us plant something changed to a tarred road..
since when, St. Anne Church renovated..
since when, BM Plaza became a place for 'foreigners' but not us..
since when, Jusco became a new place to shop..
since when, library no longer at BM town..
since when, the famous tuition teachers are no longer famous..
since when, ...

all those changes made me feel unfamiliar.. suddenly..
i feel like i am no longer a BM kia..

错过

看了某个朋友的部落格后，我就一直在想……

第一次错过了，还会有第二次吗？
如果第二次也错过了，那么，你相信你还会有多一个机会吗？

第一次，也许有缘无份吧？你想。可能，时机还未成熟；可能，犹豫太多；可能，爱得还不够深；可能，…… 还多的可能，所以，错过了。

第二次，大家都比较成熟了，以为这样，顺其自然，慢慢就可以走在一起了。可是，当你做好心理准备，正要跨脚，想要踏出那一步的时候，突然，发生了些意外，结果，……

与其这样的失落难过，何不为自己制造第三次的机会呢？
也许，因为这第三次，你们可以拥有美好的结果； 也许，你们会更懂得珍惜彼此；也许，…… 好多的也许……

可是很讽刺的是，我可以很轻易地对别人说出这些话，而我，却还抱着那没用的刺猬哲学，不敢踏出那一步。

dream

it's just a dream, i told myself..

i tried to not to set myself in fear.. but i failed..
scared.. pacnic.. flooded by many feels that i could not describe..
cried without tears..

it's just a dream.. and.. insomnia.. again..

i could share the story with nobody.. yes.. nobody i could talk with..
you guys might think that i am crazy..
yup.. i am getting crazy because of this dream.. but.. i cannot tell anyone..

it's just a dream.. a dream that i hope it won't come true..
it's not a nightmare.. it's not so horrible..
but.. it's not a good dream..

may god bless the person in the dream..

aLLice,
it's just a dream.. don't think too much..

the trip

what i can say for the trip is:

someone treat us like a pig.. brought us over for food FooD fOOd & FOOD!! oh my god! she said that we looked like didn't eat for few days, so once we reached, she brought us for the pork satey that i would like to try. 1st station, 3 of us ate 50+, just satey and drink =.= then once finish, we went to a stall to have 2nd round of food @.@

then...... all is about food.. for these 2 days..

i am really happy to meet up with emma & enjoyed the trip with my lovely friends.. we had happy time together.. talked like last time.. non stopped.. bla bla bla..
and i really appreciate emma who did lots of things for us before and when we were there.. love you, emma!!

for the mystery one who cannot appear here, would like to thank you also.. to give me such a happy memory with you all.. shared many things on the journey to malacca.. we must add oil together to reach our dreams ya ^^

malacca, here i come

half more hour later, i will be on my way to malacca..

quite some time i have not been there after graduate. Miss the satay celup there, miss jonker street (although i not really like the HOT + pasar malam kind of shopping, but it's a culture, isn't it?)

Miss the time when i first went malacca with my coursemates! i know that the time won't come back anymore, everything had changed, even me, i'm no longer the aLLice in 2005.. i can only keep the happy moment in my mind, my memory, and hopefully it won't fade..
what we said last time, that we wanted to visit again, with same gang of friends, going back to same place, do the same things, repeat everything there, and replace the ugly photos that we tool that time.. and now, i don't think that it is possible. damn miss the time when whole gang of us so close, and crazy.. we could walk around half of malacca by just our legs.. wow! geng!

and later, i will go with someone who is so nice, so kind, and so.. good..
i'm so excited to go there with her.. and maybe, we will do some stupid things that another friend will laugh of us.. but dont ask me what is that in public, i will not answer here.. it will spoilt my image, although most of my friends know already..

actually i was quite worry past few days since my friend could not help us to book a hotel.. they said there is singapore school holidays, so many hotel are full.. luckily, yesterday received a good news from my lovely friend that she could finally ffind a place for us to stay.. so happy :)

and now... i have to prepare..
have a good journey to myself and have a good weekends to my dear friends here ^^