Friday, January 22, 2010

i'm the lucky one!!

yul, sorry, have to borrow your quote!

i am the lucky one!!

everything seems like went wrong today. Started from the naSHIT lemak until the leave! it's not my day today!!

However, i saw some light in the evening.
The light that bright up my day!
- i have bibi with me, to read funny 'symbolic' words that i wrote..
- lovely sis, bought me dinner and fetch me back..
- yul sweetie, shared many things together..
- sky, gave me a solution..
- BEP, sing the song for me..
- lappie, accompanied me for hours..
- ling's bloggie, told me that she is recovering..
- buffalos, fell in the pool & made us laugh...
- 'who moved my cheese', reminded me of something that i've forgotten..

yeah!! i'm the lucky one! although i did not have a good day, i had my good evening/night!!
i'm so lucky to have all of you by my side! i'm so lucky that i still can see, hear, talk, walk, eat,.. So lucky that i'm still alive!!

i'm the lucky one!! and the good luck will follow me from now til forever!! i do believe :)

Thursday, January 21, 2010

改变

半天的工钱就这样被扣了,好无辜哦 :(

这阵子一直在想,我是不是该做出改变了?不应该在这样下去了!
我不要这样的生活了!这不是我想要的!

做了个决定,这个新的开始,希望一切顺顺利利。

祝福我吧!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

i miss you!!

i miss my sweet lovely yul dearie very much.

i believe in fate! Fate between 2 of us! Thanks fate for bring such lovely sista in my life.

we can even remember what's our first sentence when we first meet. The situation is damn funny! I guess non of us would forget about it! Right?

i always heard about yulina yulina yulina during the time at KC. They were saying that she is quite rich, her brother treat her so nice, she can spend whatever she want, and her brother would just pay for it, she is very nice, somebody likes her, she is with somebody already, she met an accident and amnesia but don't know is real or not, bla bla bla.....

However, how i thought of her at first is, she is very cool! that kind of people who is very 文静 (graceful & queit) kind of girl. First few days / weeks in haunted house, we did not talk so much to each other. Normally, i would just lock myself in the room listened to the radio. I could not online as my thoughtful elder sister not yet buy me a lappie at that time. The two devices which accompanied me most of the time were my K700i & radio that danny helped me to buy.

How & when we started to be close?
That was a weekend, that both of us didn't go to our siblings' houses, and stayed in haunted house. And our housemates were not in. i lost my stupid scissor and wanted to borrow from her. Then, when i returned the scissor to her, we started to chat in her room.

Oh my god!! We started to find out so much of 'links' between us! And we 'click' together then. Thanks to the scissor which made me find out the real yul!! We talked for hours that day. Unforgettable memory!!

Since then, we always chatted in her room, watched horror movies at midnights, dinner together, msn each other eventhough we were just in the rooms beside (=.='''),.... yea, we did many things together during the time in haunted house! Laugh together, scared together, happy together, angry together, be vampire together...

And, something happened!!


**this paragraph had been deleted due to the reason that the memory at this time is not a good memory**


Then, we moved from hell to heaven together. Really heaven for us! Only 3 of us could really understand how the feeling is! we were in heaven!! no regretted to leave the hell!!

Passed through so many things together during the year, we were even closer during the time in heaven! we did more things together, ngek ngek ngek (the evilish smile)!! the devil things especially, hehe ^.~

Went spanish class together, walked so far for a stupid useless class together at night and then skipped that class and went home together >.<'''

She teach me lots of things, shared lots of things to me, really care & concern me! We shared lots of our happiness, sadness & angriness in our small little heaven. That was the happiest time we spent together during the 3 years of my uni life.

Even when i started to work, she is always there by my side, listen to my mumble, helping me to solve my problems, giving me some ideas/solutions, sharing her happiness to me... and yet, when she knows i has been bullied by somebody, she is there willing to pull me out from the hell! Her intent to help is deeply appreciated.

And i don't know why, i miss her so much recently! Many things to share with her, but there's not much chance for us to share as both of us do not have our own transport.
Luckily, there's something called MSN & FACEBOOK! and my bloggie!! for me to shout out how much i miss YOU!!!


Tuesday, January 5, 2010

devil + i.N.G

today status at msn is :
 upset --> angry --> sad --> disappointed --> hopeless

what's that?
that is actually a process of heart-breaking when my heart was still there.
and now, the fragile heart broken. No heart anymore.

cant be so cruel, but cant be too nice.
treat others nice = cruel to myself.

devil allice cannot  be nice!!
i am devil!! transform to be devil after the heart broken..

someone said that i have nothing to lose now!
yup! i have nothing to lose now! so what i scared for? nothing!!

just be devil, allice!!

Sunday, December 27, 2009

那年的圣诞

还记得
那年的圣诞。
我们相识。一起晚餐/宵夜,一起看电影。然后,你们送我回家的时候,还很无辜地被骂了。

还记得
那年的圣诞。
躲在房里,为上一年的圣诞难过。

还记得
那年的圣诞。
我们快乐地忙着,工作着。数个星期前关闭的星巴克,关闭不了我们在那里的记忆。

还记得
那年的圣诞。
我忘了我是怎么过的了。你说要找我去玩。结果,我没答应而是把自己关在家里。

还记得
那年的圣诞。
我们一起唱k,逛街 ,倒数。第一次跟没什么说话/从来没说过话的你们出来。

还记得
那年的圣诞。
我们吃了丰富的晚餐后,还邀了她到家里来,温馨地度过了。

还记得么?
那年的圣诞。
同样地,我们一起享用一顿丰富又温馨的晚餐,然后,在家里,安静地度过。

这年的圣诞。
发烧了。在家昏迷了大半天,一整夜,让大家担心了。

Monday, December 21, 2009

life is fragile


R.I.P. Royce!

It was a Friday night. As usual, once i reached home, i took out my sister's lappie & started my 'daily task'.
i read engeling's message on facebook, and curious who's her friend that passed away. Then, i scroll down and read lots of similar messages. Mood turned from curious to shock, and then down.
the news spread very fast among us -- JSHS kia. the condolence messages on facebook, the news on the ceremony of him, the 7th day praying ceremony, the memory with him, photos, video,...

(you may click on the photo for the news on the star)

''berhati-hati di jalan raya''
guys, i believe that you are young enough to enjoy the life, but please, drive safely. life is fragile, and don't ever give a chance to spoil your own life. Don't give any chance to make people around you worry & sad.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

royal pampering @ carcosa seri negara

11th December, when all of my selangor-working-friends enjoying there holidays, i was worrying about the event (this might consider as a 1st event that i join except the roadshow)
we had only less time on the preparation, since my manager was on holidays when we decided to take the chance to organize an event at carcosa before it closed down.

thursday night, i was supposed to have dinner with friends, but then i rejected due to the reason that i need to go to carcosa for the preparation.
we moved some stuffs there and left within 1 hour, fast?
then, we passed by our bosses house to take shoes for the speaker of the event. AND, we had our quick k yummy yummy delicious dinner at bosses' house!! thanks bosses and boss's gu jei (auntie) for the yummy food!! lol

early in the morning on friday, uncle wai (boss's driver) came to pick me up to the office. he reached on time, really, 6am sharp, he reached my house already, geng!
with sleepy eyes & heart, i went down, get into the car, and prepare my mood to fight in the war. oppss.. it's to be in the war. no! no! no! to work >.<

not sure i was not enough sleep or because of the menses, i was tired and moody the whole day. rushing for this and that, and doing some stupid + crazy things @.@ blur

at first, i really worry about the guests, since i saw a granny came, then someone with small little kids and maid, then got our existing clients somemore. really wanna faint that time. no face to see our bosses who are so support us.
luckily, at last, the event end quite success :) give a big clap to my manager who busy for 2 weeks for the event. clap for howard for helping from the preparation until the end of the event; clap to howard & uncle wai for sending us & our stuffs to & from carcosa; clap to our lovely bibi, tomo & jamie for volunteering the help (bibi, love you so much!! hahaha!!); clap for our smart b. managers for helping around; clap for our sweet b. therapists for the help; clap for beaute team.. clap for everyone who contribute to the success of the event! last but not least, big big crowded clap for our smart bosses!!!

this might be a good experience for me participate in organizing an event. next event is our internal event in feb. that will be a funny crazy happy dinner for staffs!! gals, be prepared!!! lolx

Thursday, November 26, 2009

the trip to Taiping

20th November night, me and a friend rush out after work, to pudu bas station. yea, we were going to taiping to attend a friend's wedding!
all along the few hours journey, we just talked talked talked. i felt that other passengers in the same bus would thinking that, who are those 2 girls, why they cant be quiet for a minute?! haha..
our friend scared we get lost (will us? yea, maybe, hehe..) so she called us when she felt that we were almost reached, teach us how to tell bus driver where to drop us, and waited us at the place we were going off the bus.
before 'visit' her house, my friend and her hubby brought us to eat. we were damn hungry since we rushed to take bus straight away after work and we only had bread in the bus. after our late dinner, then only we went to my friend's house for awhile, and went to the place we overnight -- her hubby's house.

the next morning, we had our breakfast at the shop next to the groom's house, nasi lemak + coffee. Then uncle (father of the groom) brought us to the house they rent for us to overnight for 2 days. Chose a 'sam shui' room, we put our stuff there, then went out again.
The couple wanted to send their cars to wash, so we just followed. on the way to wash car, we 'shopped' at convenient store at the petrol station while the bride refuel her car. haha.. we bought TAM-TAM. do you still remember it? since when, i forgot the taste (taste?!) and the fun (i guess this is most important, hehe..) having a cup of it.
when we reached the car wash there, the groom was already there. we sat at a side and sembang + i.N.G. most of the time, they were they listening what we talked about THE FRUIT. sigh..
after that, we went to the bride house for awhile then only went for lunch.
it's piggie time! the bride send us back to the house the rent for us, and we started to . . .. z ZZ

bride's brother came to fetch us in the evening. that was what i thought. he did came, then he asked us to follow the car behind. i thought that was their relative. however, i was wrong. he is friend of the bride =.=
we sat with bride's elder brother & his friends and the friend who sent us there. i thought everything would be like that already, uncles aunties singing on the stage, dancing, and nothing else. i thought should be like that for whole night.
'now, we welcome XXallice up here to sing -- at least got you' shit! i cant hear it, i cant hear it. me & friend pretending couldn't hear the annoucement. who know the bride's mother stand up looking at us, and the bride walked toward us to invite us TT ok, since we could not reject already, then i told my friend, we get the bride up with us, and the groom, haha.. he just came out from toilet, very 'mou gu' being force to the stage with us as well, hahaha..

after dinner, we went 'home' to change our clothes and went to the bride's house again. she needed to 'pai tin kong' that night.

~end of a day~
luckily nobody know me in Taiping during the dinner, so mempersiasuikan only, although somebody told us the we were ok/not bad singing on the stage =.= who knows i was so panic and holding the bride hand very tight :p

the next morning, that was the wedding ceremony. the bridesmaids ffk, left my, my friend and another friend of bride. 3 of us could hardly handle the session of playing the groom. haiz.. no mood as well, since the cousins of bride who supposed to be bridesmaids but did not come out from the bride's room. moreover, the 'dai kam jei' always rushed us for the time, all mood gone.
what's a funny things is, we did not follow groomsmen's car to thr groom's house =.='''
''old master Q gorgor'' drove us there. who is ''old master Q gor gor''? haha.. he is the bride's elder brother lah! because my friend said that he looked like old master Q (because of..) haha..
sat in front of thr groom's house doing nothing for hours, sien.. wanted to go to have a look of the 'new room' but the drink tea ceremony took a very long time, so at last we went back after the ceremony, after took a few pics with the couple.

it's time to be piggie again, lolx

the bride's brother came to fetch us to his house waiting for everyone to be ok then we departed together toward the groom's side dinner. it's very far away from the place we stay. Took around half an hour to reach the restaurant.
at first, the groom wanted us to sit together with the groomsmen, he asked his younger brother to send us there already, the the groom's pretty mother asked us to sit in front, asked someone to find a place for 2 of us, hehe.. although the place is at the front half already, we still couldnt see the couple clearly while they were on the stage. luckily, there was 'live' on the screen, haha..
the bride is so pretty in the red cheongsam! love that cheongsam so much! but so sad, we had no chance to take photo with the bride while she was in the dress.
oh ya, they hired someone very 'cute + funny' to handle the wedding dinner. he brought lots of fun to everyone. his name is 'qi guai' (weird?!) and he had been invited to zhang fei's show at genting. however, i still don't know who is he..

after dinner, the groom asked us to follow his friends' cars back to KL. before going back KL, we went to the groom's house and finally got chance to visit the 'xin fang' of the couple, hehe..

~the end~
knew the groom's sista! she is same age with me! same age, same zodiac animal, same zodiac star, same month of birth, fate! she gave me a feel that, erm.. how to say, beautiful? erm.. maybe 'hei zat', yeah! it's hei zat i think. really looked like a 'dai ga gui sao'! wahahaha... i told the bride that i don't love her anymore, since she is married, then i change target to her sister-in-law.. hahaha.. (sigh.. later she really think that i am lesbian.. hahahaha...)

Friday, November 20, 2009

a test get me to know myself better?! how do you think?

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

下雨天。天灰。心灰


第一次,
觉得自己像
MV的女主角,
悲剧中的主角……

一个人,
站在挤满人群的巴士上,
默默地,流着泪……
脑海里
一直不停播的旋律――
太委屈……

是我变了吧?
变得不再那么单纯,
不再那么天真。

累了吧! 我想。

当这个没什么自信的我
一直遇到挫折,
一再受打击……

每天清晨睡醒
给自己灌输的正能量,
不到半天
已经
被负面思想给淹没……

自信心上的裂痕
日见剧增,
它,
在等待着
就快到的、
被瓦解的一天……